I am half way through my American Adventure and right at the start as the plane banked to come into Cincinnati a voice spoke to me and said ` Ahhh now I'm home` and I wondered who it was saying this to me I have never been to Cincinnati how could it be home ? but just setting this blog up with `mi boy` I realized... coming home to my son and his family and most amazingly to me Fae . I know this place .... I may not know where the wall mart is but I can find the nearest one on the map I may not know the library or food markets yet but I feel as if I belong here and that I have lived here before there is something so familiar with the people and the landscape. I just know it, adore it and feel so at home.
Fae isn't my real name but is it I wonder? when I was younger they used to call me fairy as I was so little , or doll, dont fit that description now except that I believe the inward travelling me is Fae. Some few years ago I had the opportunity to be in a psycho - drama group in Chichester England and one chap, though he knew my name to be Audrie ( slightly altered to enable me not to associate my mothers intonation when she repeated it monotonously until I finally got up out of bed !)
This man would repeatedly call me Fae when he was `in` his work and though I haven't really researched it too well I have decided it suits me better than Audrey , Audrie, Drie, Aodj and all the other identity crises , name changing I have had whilst growing up and traveling inwards.
this year has been an amazing time for me, upon actually accepting my illness and lonliness fully I have been given everything I may want and need in abundance and I am gonna explore that a bit here methinks !
